Confidence.

Confidence is not "I know what I'm doing."

Confidence is "I know how to find that out" and "I know how to learn new things" and most importantly "I know when I don't know what I'm doing, so I stop and find someone who does".

Obnoxious blowhards rely on people not understanding this distinction. And they amplify it by framing actual confidence as weakness.

This may be a useful thing to talk about with certain people in your life who are being fooled right now. 

Good

Staying on schedule today, so far.  Hoping to keep it that way from now on.  

Tapeworm got a new Lexus today.  Good on him.  

Feels.

Pretty happy with life, minus the finances.  

Everyone is upgrading, I will also soon.  

This woman has been better to me, than anyone in my life.  Regardless of scenario, mood, or situation.  She's just supportive.

I've never had that before.  

We've known each other for at least a decade now but seems like forever (in a good way).  

Why couldn't people before https://bre.mikemathia.com been more about it?  

I guess I'm glad it all worked out to this, but man, talk about taking the long ass way to happiness.  I was, and would be miserable without her around.  

Onward and upward for all of us. 

Hella.  

Let's fucking go.  

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Rough day

Not the greatest day ever.  But, got through it, and Bre was there in solid support, even when I wasn't in the best of moods.  When both of you struggle, yet still want to help each other out, it's no longer a struggle, it's love.  

I didn't even want to be around me, but there she was, being all optimistic and nice and things.  <3 

Tomorrow is going to be a long day, hopefully something will come of it.  

Abyss

I stare into the Abyss, and I know it stares back at me. Slowly, hesitantly, I reach out, and the Abyss reaches out to me.

It pets me.

It is neither warm nor cold, both firm and soft, and very, very comforting.

"Thank you," I say.

Faintly, I hear: "You'd do the same for me."

So.

I'm starting to get flustered on having either a happy professional life, or a happy personal life, but still not both at the same time.  I'm going to have to pull some amazing shit to make this all balance correctly.  

Mmmkay.